This is IT!

I have officially made it to my fourth and FINAL semester of nursing school! I always knew I would eventually make it to the end but it has been such a long journey. Last semester almost sent me over the edge and I was seriously considering another career option, even if it meant I had wasted all that time and money. It was just that awful. I'm ashamed to say I doubted myself and God so many times. I put every bit of my time into school and was getting nothing but bad results. I was a nervous wreck the whole semester! I would get physically sick when I had to go to clinical because I had to face a beast of a clinical instructor who looked for ways to make me feel stupid and like such a waste of her time. I finally came to my breaking point. I put it ALL in God's hands. Whatever happened, happened, and I was going to be happy with it no matter the outcome. It all of the sudden seemed so ridiculous to me. No one should feel that nervous, upset, sick, scared to death, over school. No one. Anyway, my whole semester came down to my final exam. I had to make a 78 to pass the semester. Anything less than a 78 would require me to repeat the entire semester. Considering my other test grades, a 78 seemed near impossible for the final, which was everything we had gone over for 4 months. I took the final, I made a 77. Yes, a 77! Really? So I go back to average my grades one last time to see if there is any chance I could pass and to my surprise one of my other test grades had moved up two points. Literally was posted online as an 86 the day before the final and jumped to an 88 the day of the final. No teacher said anything to me about it, there was nothing posted online to say why my grade had changed, nothing! All I knew was my grade had changed and it made it possible for me to pass for the semester. I needed no explanation, that was without a doubt a God thing. When things looked the darkest, He came through for me just like He has every time before. How great is our God? I tear up everytime I think about it! I doubted and doubted and doubted Him and I was getting terrible results. When I finally put it in His hands, He came through and made a way for me when it looked impossible.

I say all of that to say, this semester will be different. I will not be miserable every single day because I am worried about what will happen. I know without a doubt I have the creator of the universe on my side and He will provide a way. The battle is already won, all I have to do is trust Him!

One of my favorites:

Without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone that comes to Him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek him. Hebrews 11:6